beach day!!

a fun day at the beach= missing hubs even more!! wow can i ever win?!?! oh well im off to bed!! i heart you SMH!!! <3

blah....

well here we are past the 100 day mark and still missing him like he left yesterday!! UGH!! im soooo f-ing over it! i of course have my good days but the bad days seem to out weigh them. i keep telling myself that there is no reason to be sad because it isnt gonna change anything. but it isnt seeming to work. i LOVE hanging out with friends but sometimes its hard cuz their hubbys are there and i feel like the third wheel or i feel like im imposing on family time. i know it could be ALOT worse and i shouldnt complain cuz at least i know where he is hes safe but i still dont like it. i miss him every second of everyday and it f-ing sucks. i think about him constantly and sometimes i wish i could put him in the back of my mind so i wouldnt miss him so much. but that is never gonna happen cuz he is my everything and i love him with all my heart!! but i guess this is what i signed up for so i know i have no right to bitch so im done for now! i LOVE you and MISS you SMH!!!