its February:(

the time is almost here and im NOT ready:( i have done this 3x's before so i NEVER thought it would be this hard (just to get ready to say goodbye) but i was oh soooooooooooooooo wrong:( i just want time to stop but since i know that is NOT gonna happen i guess i need to put on my big girl panties and deal with the situation at hand. but just so everyone is clear im am NOT happy about it!