its official...ugh

after being on the list and off the list and on the list and off the list the hubs is back on the list for good. what list u ask?? the dreaded "D" word list...yep thats right here we go again....deployment number four:( i thought i was ready for this but when the hubs told me i wanted to cry and beg him to stay. i know its not up to him and i know this is what he signed up for but its still not any fun. i also know that its still a few months away and i need to not worry about it until it gets closer. i need to enjoy the time we have together right now and just put this stupid deployment in the back of my head but its hard!!! but enough about that i cant sit and stress about something i cant change!!